Retrogrades and eclipses-oh my!

We're just a few days away from our THIRD eclipse in a row, and as of tomorrow we'll have six planets in retrograde!  A planet is said to be in retrograde, when the vantage point of Earth, it appears to be spinning backward. But, what is really happening is that the Earth is completing its orbit around the Sun faster than other planets outside its orbit. Periodically, the Earth will outpace the other planets—and that’s when retrograde mayhem breaks loose.

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Much like a speeding car or train passing a slower one, the planet that’s being passed will appear to stop and move backward—which is the apparent retrograde period. Then, once the Earth completely passes this planet in its orbit, the motion appears normal again, and the planet is said to be “direct” or “prograde” (to use the scientific term). Chances are, you’ve been in a vehicle that felt like it was moving in reverse when it was passed, so you know the feeling!

Each retrograde cycle has a “shadow period”—the awkward adjustment of the retrograde planet from apparent backward to forward motion…and vice-versa. For that reason, you may feel the stirrings of a retrograde cycle for several days, even weeks, before it officially begins.

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While retrograde planets are just an illusion, astrology followers or spiritually sensitive folks can attest to experiencing their effects. The areas that a retrograde planet rules can become weak, challenging or troublesome during this cycle.

Since all planets go retrograde periodically, it is important to embrace these inevitable cycles as a fact of life, and an opportunity to build character. As the Buddha said, “No mud, no lotus.” Sometimes, it takes a challenge for us to develop the inner strength and self-knowledge we need to evolve as humans.

That being said, eclipses and retrogrades are the Universe's way for you to go deep within to tune into your intuition, and reclaim your truth.  You can use this intense healing energy to move your life forward, and let go of the people, places, things, beliefs and habits that no longer serve you.

During retrogrades, the most  paramount thing to do is to SLOW DOWN. If you want to make any changes in your life, it's vital to transform your life from the inside out. To begin to listen to that small still voice that is within all of us, which we usually ignore and which leads us into "struggles".

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So, instead of hiding in your house or spending this entire month whining about how tough you have it, why not instead  make the most of these retrograde energies and focus on the  RE words-Revisit your intentions and revise your goals;  Remember what makes you happy and do more of that; Release yourself from relationships and circumstances that no longer benefit you and most importantly Reconnect with your soul which wants to help you know what your next steps are on this incredibly amazing journey that you and I are both privileged to be on together.

Listen to that small still voice within you; Be willing to let go without struggle or suffering and trust that you are always divinely guided and protected!

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It's always about YOU!!

For the past months, I've watched the women around me try to fill their emptiness within themselves with new romances, new relationships. Despite them being in true self crisis, they still look for another being to heal that part that keeps them feeling alone and in despair, even when they eventually are partnered up.  Somehow they believe although they are lonely, depressed and withdrawn, that they will be able to find Mr. Nice.  Alas, the law of attraction tells us otherwise.  You will attract what you give out. 

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It is so exasperating to watch someone grasp onto the idea that a "man" will be the solution to all their current perceived problems.  Despite being morbidly depressed, they search endlessly for someone to help them forget about how frightened they are in their own life. They choose to give away their power to what they describe as a "nice guy", when  they truly have no idea what a nice guy is.  Their definition of "nice" is that the guy wants to be with them. It does not matter who or what he is because in truth, those women are incapable of being a part of a real relationship, since they refuse to even look at the relationship that they have with themselves. 

It breaks my heart to witness one of those women, who was clearly suicidal a few month ago,   instantly change into a happy camper when a "nice" guy looked her way.  All is well until this nice guy, who can't possibly really be nice since he is just reflecting her fear, insecurity and self loathing, walks away because he was never really into her, which she choose to remain blind to. I've watched really smart women choose to remain blind to most of the truths in their lives. They frequently are awakened by the truth. Never understanding why the people around kill themselves, "hide" from their negativity, treat them like shit and always have the same experience where they just don't see "it" coming.  The truth is they just don't want to see the truth.  The truth that these women just have decided to give their power and their life to a man, in order to feel alive. They take no notice of anything or anyone else but their man. Until....

My friends refuse to listen.  They are convinced that their happiness is dependent on being with someone. They will not listen to the fact that they need to be happy within themselves and then, they will find a truly authentic Mr. "Nice".  It is frustrating to watch what happens when Mr. Nice suddenly reverts into a jerk. Then, those women  will return to their cocoon of despair, blaming the world and even god for their pain and suffering. Always with the refrain that it was "complicated".  And that my friends is bullshit.

I write this blog knowing that the ladies who need to read this will never read it!  But, by some chance, someone who has come under the same spell that a man or woman can bring you happiness, will read this blog and awaken to the fact that no one can bring you true happiness but YOU.  Accept that fact and reclaim your power.  You can because I did. 

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I must let these people go.  It is my journey to heal all those who are in my presence.  However, many of those people do not want to be healed or helped.  I send blessings to the women who haven't learned their value and may never. Today, accept your life as it is. Accept that you always have a choose.  Choose to love yourself and then you'll find the real Mr. Nice, right in front of you, right inside of you.

 

Transform your fate into destiny

It's a Full Moon tomorrow and I'm sure you can feel the intensity of the energies.

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Tomorrow's Full Moon is in Capricorn - this is the sign that encourages you to build your dreams step by step, even when it feels like you are climbing a steep mountain. You must have patience and perseverance. It's not a time to give up on yourself! Rather, it's a time to remember that your dreams are worth the effort and that YOU are truly the creator of your life's journey.

Many people use the words fate and destiny interchangeably. Yet, they are very different. Fate is what occurs if you let life happen to you. Life deals you a hand and you can accept those circumstances as seemingly inevitable. Destiny is choosing to be a deliberate creator of your life, fulfilling your potential for greatness. If fate is the hand you are dealt, destiny is how you play it.

Fate is your karma. Destiny is your dharma.

You make choices every day. You can choose to live by the rules you were taught, or you can choose to do what's truly in your heart. It's up to you!  Today, focus on what you want your future to look like;  let go of all the stuff that's holding you back and keeping you stuck. Then, move forward with love in your heart.  Create the life you desire!

Gracefully let go!

As I have aged, I have come to learn that setbacks and disappointments are all part of life! Things that once seemed to be a perfect fit in my life, no longer feel that way and the goals, which I dreamed of accomplishing seem to not matter at all, replaced by new visions for my future.  It seems as if suddenly I find myself completely changed-feeling a stranger in my own life. Not recognizing nor relating to the "old" people in my life but not having anything to replace them with.

That feeling disconnected spans from my job to my friends. Sometimes it is hard for us to admit when we've grown apart from someone, especially if that person once fit perfectly into our lives.  This person could be anyone-a friend, your family, or your past co-workers. I have tried to think my way out of my present uneasy feelings.  But, the Universe would not let me.  Each and every person has shown me, who they are-suffering, narcissistic and broken.  They all secretly wanted me to save their souls, while they continued to let their ego run their lives, remaining empty and unfulfilled.  They take and then they are so shocked when the faucet of compassion is turned off.  One thing they all have in common is that they all only took from me, never capable of returning any of my compassion.  I gave my power to each and every one of them.   I choose all those people so that I could learn to love and respect myself more! To learn how to stick up for myself and to stand in my own power. 

Perhaps, you too are living in the same present day "uncomfortable fit" that I am experiencing.  If so, know that this uncertainty is caused by Life itself. Life changes us, if we let it. We can certainly fight it or we can let go gracefully to make room for people, places and things that are more in alignment with who we are right now. 

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And, that is the key to all of this.  We only truly live in a sequence of present moments.  The past is done. The old thinking is done.  And, now it's time, as always to begin again.  To listen more closely to your heart and to tightly hold onto to your power.

Recently, I've done a series of letting go of childhood trauma.  Trauma that since no one ever believed me, I buried deep within myself. It has now been uncovered, recognized and released.  I have been released to love and honor myself for the person I have become and for the person who I am becoming.  I encourage each and every person, to stop fighting to stay the way you were and embrace the new. 

Be willing to let go of all the things that do not serve you to create space for better things to enter your life. Express gratitude for all the wonderful things in your life and for all the wonderful things that are coming to you. Sit back and watch the beautiful un-foldment of your life with joy and delight. This is the only real moment and YOU are exactly who you were meant to be. Let go!

 

Be willing!

“Most of our troubles are due to our passionate desire for and attachment to things that we misapprehend as enduring entities.” ~Dalai Lama

Last week we collectively were awakened by the suicides of two famous and wealthy celebrities, which most of us never knew but nonetheless were floored by their self-destructive actions. It was inconceivable that these seemingly blessed people still couldn't find peace in their lives. Even more incredible is the stories that we created around each of those senseless deaths just to make ourselves feel better.  

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Both suicides were senseless to me and made me more aware of how much struggling and suffering there is on this blessed planet of ours.  I've heard this week over and over how hard life is and how everyone is "trying". In fact, they are not trying, they are either doing or not doing.  Trying is when you struggle and suffer because you are truly unwilling to change.  So by saying I'm trying, you give yourself an out just in case you fail.  In fact, you are probably doing, just not up to your expectations or the expectations of others. 

What I also realized is that pretty much all of our struggles, from frustrations to anxiety, from anger to sadness, from grief to worry, all stem from the same thing …

The struggles come from being too tightly attached to something.

When we’re worried, we are tightly attached to how we want things to be, rather than relaxing into accepting whatever might happen when we put forth our best effort. When we’re frustrated with someone, it’s because we’re attached to how we want them to be, rather than accepting them as the wonderfully flawed human they are. When we procrastinate, we are attached to things being easy and comfortable (like distractions) rather than accepting that to do something important, we have to push into discomfort. In trying to hold on to what’s familiar, we limit our ability to experience joy in the present.

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Moreover, it seems as if we pin our happiness to people, circumstances, and things and then hold onto them for dear life. We stress about the possibility of losing them when something seems amiss. Then we melt into grief when something changes—a lay off, a breakup, or the awakening to a friendship that never was. An awakening to how we gave so much of our power over to people, places and things that in reality meant nothing and who never had the capability to give us what we wanted. 

When you stop trying to grasp, own, and control the world around you, you give it the freedom to fulfill you without the power to destroy you. That’s why letting go is so important— letting go is letting happiness in.

I recognize that it is not so simple to let go of attachment. It is not a one-time decision, like pulling off a band-aid. Instead, it’s a day-to-day, moment-to-moment commitment that involves changing the way you experience and interact with everything you instinctively want to grasp.

Today, accept the moment for what it is and let NOW be enough. Become your own best friend. It is difficult to let  go of people,  when you depend on them for your sense of worth. Believe you’re worthy whether someone else tells you or not. This way, you relate to people, not just how they make you feel about yourself.

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Finally, experience, appreciate, enjoy, and let go to welcome new and wonderful experiences and people. You are enough and it's time to let go of all the people, places and things that you no longer need. It's time to welcome in the new you who you are becoming. 

Can the can't!

I've spent the last couple weeks listening to the words spoken by the people around me.   And, it struck me how much self-limiting and negative words, which routinely people used to talk about their lives.  The most glaring one was "I can't".  Yesterday, I heard a very capable women say over and over again that she "can't help" being afraid of heights, of birds, of weird looking fruit" among the many other things that she'd decided that she just couldn't face or deal with.  

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What was troubling to me was that this woman is a psychotherapist, working with eating disorder and deeply and profoundly damaged people, usually other women. She looked way older than her age. She looked as if she was carrying the weight of the world on her shoulders.  She, of course, was unaware of how haggard and broken she looked or how sad she sounded each and every time she approached anything that might be out of her comfort zone, repeating the same refrain-I can't...I can't...I can't!  Imagine that this broken woman is treating other broken people...thus perpetuating the same cycle that we are victims of our experiences.  I have a long history with "therapy" in my past so I know how common it is to have broken people go into mental health to try to fix themselves. They are usually as sick or sicker than the patients, who they are treating. They perpetuate pathology through their version of helping.

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I gave up "talk" therapy a long time ago, after spending too much time lying to my therapists and almost going broke while I remained broken. I am here to tell you today that you are not a victim of your life circumstances!

  I am certain that you are now arguing with me that I could not possibly understand how hard your life is or has been; how much you suffer and how uniquely challenged you are....the most challenged of anyone you know. You may even trump everyone with your suffering by adding addiction, alcoholism and a hefty dose of self pity-all conditions that you have mastered and you alone suffer, no one has it as hard as you do!  I have listened to a litany of why people suffer.  The one thing, I haven't have heard is how they, in reality, have created all their own suffering from the start.  

Today, wipe the word can't out of your vocabulary! Begin to say I choose, I chose to and I am choosing to.... Begin to hear how your words limit your experiences.  Do not become your pathology.  If you have a chronic disease, do not become your disease.  Do not become attached to your suffering and let it define who you are.  Focusing on everything that is wrong with you life, over and over again on social media, by repeating your old stories does not make anything better .  You are more than your illness, disability or past history.   You always have a choice and you are not your disease nor are you defined by the tragedies in your life.

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Step out of your comfort zone of getting your needs met by getting sick, having accidents, struggling with physical or emotional illnesses or holding onto limiting beliefs? You are a blessed child of God and you deserve more.  Cut yourself a break and cut out the word can't from your life! 

Girls Scout Cookies never tasted this good!

Some weeks, a good weed strain story can be the force that gets you through! This week was one of those weeks and the weed story that I'm fixin' to tell is about a strain that outshines all strains in the world of cannabis and has parented countless offspring.  That strain is Girl Scout Cookies

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Girl Scout is a hybrid strain that is said to be a blend of OG Kush x Durban Poison, or OG Kush x Cherry Pie (GDP x Durban Poison). But in truth, after researching this strain, the real lineage of this strain is really unknown, according to it's creator Jigga, the legendary breeder behind Girl Scout Cookies. The only certainty is it was bred in San Francisco, California, sometime in the last couple of years; perhaps 2011 or 2012. The strain was developed by a Nor-Cal group of associates known simply as the Cookie Family. From there, different phenotypes have been distributed throughout the United States.  Some of its notable offspring include Gelato and Sherbet – as well as all the offshoots like Thin Mint or crosses like Blueberry and Strawberry Cookies.

Girl Scout Cookies was the parent of at least four of the last strains that I consumed so, I'd say it made it's way onto my hit parade.  Those strains included Sugar Cookies, a heavy indica strain, Sunset sherbert a happy, balanced hybrid, Grape Cookies, a really aromatic, tasty indica hybrid, Birthday Cake and Wedding Cake, both balanced and happy hybrids and the list could go on and on. 

So what makes this strain so popular is that it is a beautiful, relaxing and tasty strain that no matter what you pair it with the hybrid turns out bright and happy.  Cheers to the Jigga and now I'm told to Berner, the rapper, who is fabled to have taken the Girl Scout Cookies strain to the next level.  Whoever created it and then lovingly crafted it, has my gratitude.  This week their skill made even the most tedious of times seem tolerable.  It is my hope that you found something or someone that shone the light in your life to remind you that Life loves you and gives you everything you need to get through too!

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Pink April Full Moon

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” - Anais Nin

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Last night was the April Pink Full Moon, called the "Pink" Full Moon. It is called a Pink Full Moon because of the many spring blossoms opening up during the time of this Full Moon. As in the theme of April's showers brings May flowers, it’s time to for you to connect to this powerful activation for April, opening you up for the transformations to come in May. 

Not only are the flowers emerging, but so is love! Love is the emerging energy, which wants to express through you and your life. Anything that has felt hidden, unseen, unknown, fuzzy, held back and stuck is now making a massive long-lasting shift. It is a shift for showing up, being seen, and being known. 

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 Now is the time to shine your light within and to stop comparing yourself and your life with everyone around you!  Now is the time to stop playing it safe. Do not shy away from opportunities to connect, grow, and try something new. Put yourself out there and you'll learn more about yourself!Now is the time for letting your protective layers dissolve into the light. Let the promise of something fresh and new blossom in your life.  Spring has sprung and if you let it, so is your soul ready to soar! 

Happiness is an inside job!

Rarely do I awaken with "fire in my belly", which begs me to write.  This morning is one of those mornings! I've been wrestling with letting go of people, place, things and habits that no longer serve any purpose in my life.   Wrestling is the key word in that sentence.  My ego has been working overtime replaying its favorite re-frames and tempting me to look outside for my happiness.

This morning it became crystal clear to me, that my true happiness will never be found outside myself. No amount of substances, friends, lovers or work will fill the void that I often feel when I become disconnected to my inner voice/self. And so, I surrendered this morning to my higher self that knows all.  Most of all that knows what is right for me, today in this moment.

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Today, is a day of discernment for me and for you.  I encourage you to begin to look within, to listen to that small still voice that implores you to stop "trying" and begin to do.  To forgive and to let go of your struggling, wondering and worrying. You always have everything you need to know if you allow yourself to quiet your mind and open your heart.

I say farewell to the people, places and things that I have known all along serve no purpose but, somehow for some reason I gave my power to them.  Now, I let go and LISTEN!

Just for today, I trust my inner wisdom.  I listen with love to my inner voice and when I do, I hear all the answers to all the questions I shall ever ask.

I move through life knowing I am divinely guided, protected and loved.  And so it is.

A day for forgiveness

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Today is a day for forgiveness! My numerology friends tell me that 4-18-18, holds double 18 energy and the number 18 is considered the most sacred number in the Kabbalah. It's a number that denotes tuning into your soul and letting go of whatever ego fears you have. I can't think of a better way of spending a day than by releasing everything that is keeping my life small! I can't think of a better way to spend my day forgiving everyone for everything, including myself for all past perceived wrongs and in the process freeing myself!

So,  I  started my day asking myself "what or who are you still holding onto because you perceive that you’ve been wronged?" And, you know what, it seems as if I've been holding onto people, places and things from my way past and some from my more recent past.

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I work on letting go on a routine basis. So, it took me by surprise how much resentment that still remains within me.  It showed me again how important it is to forgive!  To forgive because no matter how justified I feel I am in my righteous indignation, no matter what “they” did, if I insist on holding on to the past, then I will never be free. Ironically, what I am actually forgiving is that those people, places and things just weren't what I wanted them to be.  That was a major revelation.  I created the illusions and then my illusions let me down! With that revelation, I was able to easily let go and I now feel so free.

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I encourage you to join me and free yourself by consciously forgiving yourself and everyone else, who surely taught you some very valuable lessons.  Lessons that have helped you grow and change in an absolutely perfect way.

Through forgiveness, you and I will be able to let go of whatever ego fears and resentments, which in reality are weighing us down and keeping us stuck in the past.  Forgive and set yourself free! 

Clearing up the confusion about Cannabis, Cannabinoids, CBD's & THC?

If you haven't heard yet, my new gig is selling CBD products manufactured by a local, San Diego company, called Pure Ratios.  And, before I go any further, it's important that you know the difference between Hemp and Marijuana. 

Although Hemp and Marijuana come from the same species of plant, Cannabis sativa, their effects and medical conditions that they treat are very different.  Cannabis sativa  can contain a wide spectrum of cannabinoid concentrations, including wide ranging compositions of THC and CBD.  However, there are many practical differences between hemp and marijuana, and clear lines drawn between the two.

Difference between hemp vs Marijuana

In practical use, “hemp” is the term used to describe the food and fiber variety of the cannabis plant, and “marijuana” is cannabis that’s grown to enhance the chemicals that make you feel high or stoned.

Cannabis Sativa has both male and female plants. When growing marijuana, male plants are removed and only female plants are cultivated. This is because when cannabis is fertilized, it lowers the concentration of THC–the main chemical that gets you high. Thanks to selective breeding over many years, ideal concentrations of THC in marijuana range from 10% to as much as 30%. 

Marijuana is usually grown indoors so that conditions can be monitored very closely. Marijuana is encouraged to become short and bushy and grow lots of flowers. That’s because THC is concentrated mostly in the trichomes — little resin-filled glands — on the flowers of the plant. Although you can find THC throughout cannabis, it is the flowers or “buds” that are harvested for recreational marijuana.

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Hemp, on the other hand, is as close as you can get to how cannabis grows naturally. Hemp is grown all over the world for food, oil, and fiber — so, the whole plant can be used, not just the flowers. With the hemp type of cannabis, male and female plants are sown very closely together, allowing for easy wind pollination and easily crowding out weeds. This results in very tall, hardy plants with less branching that look very different from the short, bushy marijuana plants.

Another key difference between hemp and marijuana is that hemp naturally has almost no THC. Its flowers must contain just 0.3% THC — which is 33 times less than the least potent marijuana. Meaning, it’s impossible to get high from hemp, although many people have tried! Hemp also has more CBD than THC naturally, making it an ideal source of CBD from cannabis and one of the reasons why hemp oil is the preferred source of natural CBD for thousands of people.

Cannabinoids

CBD and THC are the two most abundant of the many cannabinoids found in cannabis. They both interact with the endocannabinoid system but elicit different natural effects.

Cannabidiol (CBD) and tetrahydrocannabinol (THC) are the two most prominent cannabinoids found in Cannabis, the plant genus that includes both hemp and marijuana. While there are over 100 different cannabinoids so far identified in cannabis by scientists, CBD and THC are by far the most extensively studied and best understood.

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CBD and THC both interact with the body through the endocannabinoid system, a vital signaling system responsible for regulating a wide array of functions, some of which include:

  • Pain
  • Appetite
  • Mood
  • Memory
  • Immune response
  • Sleep
  • Cycles of cellular life and death

Their chemical makeups are similar to the body’s own endocannabinoids, which allows them to interact with the endocannabinoid system’s cannabinoid receptors to alter the release of neurotransmitters in the brain.

 Major Differences between THC and CBD: 

Despite their similarities, CBD and THC have distinct differences that influence how they interact with the endocannabinoid system and subsequently the natural effects they elicit.

Psychoactive Vs. Non-Psychoactive:  One of the key differences between CBD and THC is whether the cannabinoid will cause a euphoric effect, or “high,” when consumed.

THC is the cannabinoid people think of when they think of marijuana. It is a direct agonist of the endocannabinoid system’s cannabinoid 1 receptors (CB1), found primarily in the brain and the central nervous system. The psychoactive effect that most associate with recreational or medical marijuana use is exclusively brought about by activating CB1receptors.

CBD doesn’t bind with CB1 receptors and is actually is considered an antagonist of CB1agonists. This not only means that CBD can never cause a high, no matter how much is consumed, but that it also acts to suppress the CB1-activating qualities of compounds like THC.

Now that I've cleared up all the confusion, you can now share your new found clarity and knowledge with your friends and family.  For it is only through education will we be able to start to incorporate the magical and medical properties of Cannabis and let go of all the fear and ignorance that currently surrounds it.   It's time that we all change, heal and move forward! 

 

 

Up in smoke...

If you've been keeping up with my adventures then you may have noticed that smoke has figured  heavily into many aspects of my life. Today, it's once again all about the smoke. However, this time it's all about the stuff that has gone up in smoke!

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Mercury retrograde began a couple of days ago and I'm feeling the cosmic effects.  Mercury retrograde energy slows us down and helps us re-evaluate every aspect of our lives.  It also causes computers to crash, people to show their true selves and communication mix-ups.  That all being said, the retrograde energies have awakened to people, places and things again that truly were not serving me in any way, even if I made up reasons why they somehow serve some purpose. 

Once again, I awoken to things that I KNEW were not in alignment with my purpose.  In fact, sucked up my energies and exposed me to negativity and drama which I no longer allow in my life.  So, as quickly as I awoke, so did my illusions go up in smoke.  Again and again, I am given experiences that are intended to teach me how to trust my intuition.  At the risk of sounding repetitive,  I am always guided and protected, all I need to do is actually listen and act. 

I think that perhaps life is about the repetitiveness and whether you repeat love and joy or repeat fear, anger and disillusionment.  If you repeat the latter then that's exactly what you will find in your life.  I plan to replace disappointment, anger and fear with the joy of knowing that I have learned so many lessons from all my frolics with smoke, which have all gone up in smoke. 

Today, I let go of all the people, places and things that taught me so much-the main lesson being that you always have everything within yourself-all knowledge, understanding and love.  Listen, act and trust.  Know that you are always divinely protected, guided and loved, just like me!

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Wishing that this retrograde helps you to re-evaluate, revision and reboot your life.  You always have the power to recreate your life, take the leap and the net will appear!

Marchin' Orders

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Once in a Blue Moon, you get to meet your cannabis farmer for coffee!  Today, both of those scenarios came true.

Tonight is a Full Moon in Virgo.  This full moon will be the first of two full moons in one month, in this case the month of March, also known as a Blue Moon month.  And, this morning I had coffee with a cannabis farmer, who grows his cannabis indoors and after many years, has mastered, in my opinion, his growing process.  He, like many other local small cannabis growers, is currently unable to sell his cannabis to licensed retails shops because he does not have a cultivation license.

A cultivation license is complicated to get for many reasons, including cost, geographic location, zoning laws and a list of other ordinances which now govern the cannabis industry.  He, again like the majority of small growers, is weighing their options for the future. 

One thing is for sure is that his cannabis cultivation operation will have to change drastically and perhaps, geographically.  Legal cannabis has put many cultivators, manufacturers and distributors out of business. Many small growers had to shutdown after January 1st.  They will have to remain closed until they find some way to obtain a cultivation license. A process which could include joining forces with another bigger farmer that already has a license;  purchasing one from a big business guy, who bought up all the licenses for lots of money before January 2018 and is now selling them for big bucks; or he could find his own legal space determined through ordinance, hire many attorneys, pay large licensing fees and make his way through the SD cannabis licensing lottery system.  None of the options will be cheap or easy!

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It's all so complicated and some of it is beyond my comprehension.  So, I'll focus on what I do understand!  What I do understand is that life is a teacher and I am a student.  And, last month taught me a lot. Taught me a lot about trust, courage and self love by testing my faith.

Tonight by the light of the full moon, I will focus on all the good things in my life!  I will be grateful for each and every one.  I will gladly give away all the thoughts, beliefs, jobs, people and places that no longer serve me to make way for new ones.  This process will bring so much joy into my life.  And so it is.  Let go and be grateful!

Once in a Blue Moon

You probably have used the idiom "once in a blue moon" to describe something that happens only rarely. You might have even hummed along with the song "Blue Moon" by Billie Holiday or taken a sip of the Belgian-style beer called "Blue Moon." We've all heard about this mysterious blue moon all the time, but do you know what it really means?  Luckily, the meaning of a blue moon does not disappoint; it's just as enchanting as it sounds.

There are several definitions of a blue moon, but the most commonly known is two full moons in one calendar month.  On average, this cosmically coincidental event happens roughly every 2.7 years, so it's not exactly what you'd call "common," but it's certainly not so rare that we won't experience several of them during our lifetime. And we got to see one this morning!

This morning's Blue Moon was also a blood moon and a super moon. Talk about a trinity of "spacial glory", a trifecta of lunar love! To have all three lunar phenomenons happening at once is something to behold and it'll be the first super blue blood moon in 150 years. Now THAT'S what I call "once in a blue moon!"

So, you're wandering what all this "lunacy" has to do with you and your life, right? Why should I care? Well, that's a loaded question but, the energies of the moon impact your life whether you believe it or not. So,  if you've been focusing on something for many "moons" now, then NOW is the time you can see those hopes and dreams come true in the form of awakenings or physical manifestations. Things will come full circle for you if you let go of what no longer serves any purpose in your present life to make room for new and exciting opportunities.

Today, be very conscious about moving forward!  Stop looking longingly at your past, it is done! Move forward and make sure you're letting your heart lead you in all you do!  Celebrate the new and remember the center of your power is heart.  Follow it!! Happy Full Moon!

What you missed!

Here's what you missed at the very first legal cannabis paired, not infused dinner held last Thursday by Lego Optimo.  You'll have another chance to experience life in a whole new way on February 22nd.  Tickets go on sale tomorrow!

Sunday serenity...

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Today was supposed to be a day of serenity, according to my numerology friends. They explained that "this 21st day of the year brings a Pisces Moon with some pleasant connections with other water signs. It should make for a relaxing Sunday! Additionally, they wrote that "21 is the number of The World in the Tarot. It represents the emotional and material satisfaction you can receive when you bring together your spiritual and physical selves."  That was the way today was "supposed" to be.  It was anything but serene for me.

I frequently write about and speak about illusion and the power of illusion over our minds.  What I mean by illusion is a situation or a belief that is completely not substantiated by reality but is seen and felt by us as "reality". It is our minds that create the stories around people, places and things in our life.  None of them in reality have any meaning except what we give them.  Those stories and that reality is temporary because we made it up.  The stories and the power we gave to those stories vanish when we are awakened back into reality.   I work at staying present which usually keeps me out of illusion.  But somehow this Sunday, I allowed myself to venture into illusion and then spent the rest of the day wrestling back to an awakened state. 

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I am awake now and have returned back to the beauty, peace and serenity of my present life. I write this in hopes that if you are wrestling with illusion that this blog helps you to awakened to the beauty in your life, even if illusion has been blocking out the light.  All is truly well in your world.  If not, make it so!

Break out of your comfort zone, today!

This year is all about breaking out of your comfort zone and experiencing your life in a whole new way.   It is all about dropping all the limitations that you have put on your life so that you can feel safe and secure!  It is time to drop all your beliefs on "who you are" and try something new.  It is time to let go, leap and know that the net will appear! 

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Here's your chance to try something new, as you travel on your path to becoming more of who you are! Please by your tickets today! https://legooptimacannbisdinners.bpt.me

Be a part of San Diego's first sophisticated dining experience for the cannabis connoisseur !

Happy New Year my friends! As most of you know, recreational cannabis is now legal! What you may not know is that I have started a new company with a seasoned Cannabis Sommelier called Lego Optimo.

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Lego Optimo is a fine dining and entertainment event company that offers access to educational information and spirited cannabis culinary experiences. It is our mission to educate San Diegans about cannabis and how to responsibly incorporate it into their lives, including their culinary experiences. 

All that being said, I would love to invite you and your nearest and dearest friends to attend our very first dinner on January 25th at 6pm to 9 pm at an undisclosed location.

Here are the details:

This fine dining experience will include a private tour of one of San Diego’s most premier recreational cannabis retail shops, followed by a four course locally sourced dinner created by Flor Franco of Franco’s on Fifth and Benito Molina, celebrity chef and one of the three judges for MasterChef Latino on Telemundo.  The four courses will be paired with four strains of cannabis, chosen by a cannabis sommelier in collaboration with the chefs.  This is NOT an infused dinner and cannabis consumption is optional. The unique evening will also include cannabis education from local cannabis growers and vendors, music from local artists and will be an event that will be unforgettable. To purchase tickets or for more information, please visit the event website at https://legooptimacannbisdinners.bpt.me or contact the organizers at 619-846-9886.

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This dinner is the first of a series of six dinners.  Each dinner will provide attendees with a completely unique dining experience. Flor Franco and six different well-known chefs, including Javier Plascencia, will create the cuisine for each dinner. The cannabis strains paired with each dinner will reflect a broad range of growing styles, locales, flavors and effects.  And, all dinners will include a private dispensary tour, local music and education on a wide range of cannabis 

If this dining experience doesn't interest you, I would be most grateful if you can pass it along to other folks who might be interested.  There are only 25 tickets available so please act today! 

Reflecting and looking forward

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As this year comes to a close, I reflect on how much I've learned, let go of and how much I still need to learn.  I spent this holiday with a childhood friend, who has been suffering from depression and despair since her husband died four years ago.  For many reasons, I thought that her visit to San Diego would perhaps give her a new, fresh perspective on her seemingly hopeless life.  I however was quite wrong!  Despite all my best attempts she could never surrender enough to see the love and light that was right in front of her.

Now that she is on her way back home, I am left feeling truly sad, wiped out and really tired.  I also feel enlightened by the experience.  For you see, over twenty years ago, I too suffered from what seemed to be intractable depression.  Watching her struggle and fume about how life has "screwed" her over, made me realize how incredibly blessed I am to have healed myself.  The only difference between my friend and I is that I was willing to do anything to heal myself. I was willing to let go of the people, places and things that served no purpose in my life.  I was willing to learn new things every day and be open to new experiences.  I was willing to change.

My friend's visit during these holidays ends a year of awakenings.  A year of awakening to many of the illusions that I chose to give my power to and that I now choose to release to the universe.  I now choose to let go of all the illusions that made me feel powerless and less than.  I let go of all the beliefs that made me feel less than enough.

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New year's day is a Super Full Moon, which is the perfect time to let go of all your old limitations.  It is time to shine a light on all the illusions that no longer serve you any purpose.  It is time to forgive everyone, including self. It is time to dream a new dream for an incredibly blessed and abundant new year.  It is time for you to become more of who you are!  Be open to the limitless possibilities that await you in the New Year. Let go and let the new come in! Let go and let life love you!!