Homish for the Holidays-#1

The universe saw fit to send me back to the East Coast, from whence I came, for the holidays to revisit my ghosts from the past, present and future! How this visit happened and what I thought it would offer me still remains unclear to me.  I think that at some point many months ago,  I said yes! I know that I quickly forgot about that plan, going about my business, living in the present moment, in the now. 

But, I am here, in the middle of the big apple, trying to make sense of my past, present and clearing the way for my future.  I'm hoping through this process of looking back at my past, I can finally let go of all that no longer serves me and I can move forward into a new year.

  I believe that one cannot nibble at the Big Apple!  It is imperative to just a take a big bite. I know this because I used to live here.  I lived in NYC for eight years in my twenties, after graduating from undergraduate school as an RN, BSN.  So, today was like coming home to a very old friend who has transformed, just like me, into a place that I never imagined it would become-a clean, safe and hospitable place to visit. With all that said, I go forward ready to devour the Big Apple!

Almost immediately Big Apple offered me a rare chance to relive a "good" childhood memory.  As I visited Rockefeller Center and watched the skaters, I remembered how I skated there as a small child, finishing up with a warm cup of cocoa and some rare family togetherness.  My family visited NYC every Christmas while I was growing up to see the windows, walk the city and of course, see the Rockettes.   Funny enough, today I even saw the Rockettes!  However,  they weren't kicking up their heels on the stage at the Radio City Music Hall.  Today in 2016, the Rockettes were handing out coupons for their next holiday extravaganza matinee outside on the street in front of the theater.  Everything changes!

Although lots has changed in Manhattan since my childhood visits, I am so grateful for the gift to remember a time, when so much of my history hadn't been written yet.  I hadn't made a whole lot of bad decisions and hadn't overcome so many challenges.  I remembered a time when my only worry was about staying warm and getting extra whipped cream for my hot chocolate. 

I spent the rest of the day walking 5th Avenue taking in the spirit of the holiday season that you can only get on 5th Avenue in Manhattan.  After taking in all the glitz and the glamor of the store windows, listening to the incessant playing of Christmas carols, I made my way to St Patrick Cathedral.  When I lived in NYC, I often made my way to this church, praying for strength to overcome illness and the death of my father. 

Today, as I entered the cathedral the same sense of grace washed over me.  To me, this is not a place of religion but rather of spiritual retreat.  Today,  I prayed for the courage and the strength to let go of all the beliefs, people, places and things that no longer serve any purpose in my life.  I prayed that all my changes would be easy and that I would have the strength to shine my light brighter in the new year.  

I awoke the next morning filled with hope, energy and anticipation for another day that would undoubtedly offer me more opportunities to remember and let go.  This "today" is the day of our last full moon so letting go and releasing the past was definitely on my mind. 

I started the day off with a walk through Chelsea and Granmercy, home of my first employer, NYU Medical, my first apartment in NYC and so many other firsts that it seemed like I was reliving my 21st year.  Just how much I remembered surprised me since I've burned a bunch of brain cells in the last 27 years!

I walked through Greenwich Village, where you can longer find any dudes selling or smoking weed.  Now there are really clean children's playgrounds and lots of tourists taking pictures.  My walk then took me through Little Italy, Christopher Street and onto the Chelsea Market, a feast for every sense and my stop for breakfast and time to reflect, again! I love the Big Apple and marvel how quickly I adapted to the subways and to the faster pace.  My feet somehow remembered the cadence of the city streets and the sound and the smells of the subway. Where had almost thirty years gone? Why did all these places feel so familiar when I hadn't been here in almost 30 years?  And, how had I become someone who was now a completely different person.  That is a subject for another blog.  Here is some the beauty I saw:

This ends day two of my adventure.  Please continue to follow me as I uncover and release through my journey with my past.   I will post during my trip and after so that you know how this trip ends!

Staying awake is so hard to do!

It's been almost two weeks since the election, since we all were awakened by its results.  I initially was empowered by the knowledge that perhaps this was exactly what we all needed-to awaken to the truth that we all had gone to sleep and allowed darkness and hatred to seep into our lives and take root.  However, after weeks of watching and absorbing the collective fear and anguish about what was happening as the new administration began to nominate the darkest leaders in our country, I began to be worn out.

I purposely have not turned on the news, knowing that all the hypothetical, apocalyptic predictions of every talking head on the 24hr news channels only add to the collective fear being experienced in our country, in my world.  Their predictions are no more real than the feelings of complacency that we collectively had a month ago, before the elections, when all seemed well in our world.

I forged ahead,  boldly feeling empowered by the hope that we had been awakened and now we can go about healing ourselves and our country.  I approached every person with joy, love and compassion, all week long. However, by this weekend, the collective pain that I absorbed during the past week, finally took me down.  So, this weekend, I hid and searched for something, someone who would make this darkness go away.  But, no matter how I tried, I could not go back to sleep.  I could no longer find comfort in the illusions, people places and things that used allow me to move through my life anesthetized, believing in what plainly is not real, just because it made me feel better.  Of course, I only felt better, until it was time to re-awaken again.

I am awake!  I promise myself that I will remain awake.  I will continue to let go of the illusions, once, for all and forever! I will remind myself often that they are not real and have no power over me in present moment.   I acknowledge that this is not a painless process.  It is through going through the pain of separation, letting go and awakening that I become enlightened.  That I become more of who I am supposed to be.

Please stay awake with me!  Honor your truth now matter what!  Be authentic no matter what!  Let go of everything and everyone who does not serve your highest purpose.  You know exactly what those things are and you have known for a every long time what those things are.  Now, today is the day, that you move forward into raising the frequency of your world and our world collectively-through love!

Make a Wish!

Sometimes the Universe has to shake you to awaken you…and that's exactly what collectively the Universe did this week with the results of our election. So many of us are feeling shaken and fearful of what will happen in our future.

However, when you take a moment to step back…to zoom out and take a bigger look at our world, you will see that we live in awakening times, times of rapid change.  Although change is sometimes scary, and as humans we tend to resist it, change is what carries us forward on the awakening path. It transports us into awakening, into greater love, oneness and the disclosure of the fullness of our true selves.

It is happening NOW and for those who are aware, awake, and willing to turn away from fear, they will find unlimited opportunities await them.   As layers of the veil,  which keep you disconnected and trapped in ego,  are lowered, doorways will open to experiences, people, place and things, which are more aligned with your true purpose.

I invite you to step through that open doorway and move forward into the light, into greater awareness and power. Use today's 11:11 energy as a springboard,  to begin to boldly love, courageously trust, and see the blessings beneath the surface that are here and now.  Focus your intentions because they're supercharged now and stand in the fullness of your light. Step Into your vibrant truth, peace and oneness of the new paradigm, which we’re all in the process of fully stepping into.

Take one step and one moment at a time.  Together we can stay awake and rise above the chaos, negativity and fear! Together we can wish our lives and our planet into a new age of love and connection!

Faith in the power to heal

I never blog unless I have something to say;  something that is burning in my belly and can't be contained any longer.  This morning here's what I've got to say!

When I awoke this morning, I found my world had been completely turned upside down.  Because I choose not to obsess over the poll reporting last night,  I truly awakened without any idea of who had won the presidential race. So, when I reached for my phone this morning, I was indeed blindsided by the news that Trump was now our new president. 

Funny enough, I initially didn't even try to make sense of the news.  I just went about my usual 4 am meditations and intention setting for my day.  When I finished, I received very clear messages that

• We are now given the chance to rise above darkness and fear. 
• We are now being given the chance to become involved in what is really important to us. 
• We are the change in our individual lives. 

Finally, this is not the time for blame, anger or more hate.  It was those emotions and fear that has led our world to exactly where we are this morning-wounded, sad, hopeless.  And worst of all,  projecting that fear into what your futures will look like!

My future is love.  I made that commitment to myself years ago and although my ego has allowed me to stray and think illusions are real along the way.  Today, I know that love is the only way we will heal. 

Today, I make another commitment to myself and to you, that I will continue to be the light in my life and my world.  I commit to take responsibility for my own life,  my own happiness and the world I live in.  I willingly let go of all that no longer serves any purpose in my life because it distracts me from my real purpose!  My real purpose which is to heal myself, the world and for that matter YOU, as you read this blog post. 

I invite you all to "get real".  To find love in your hearts again for others and for yourselves.  It is only in that way will we heal ourselves, move forward and remember to see the beauty in this all precious and fleeting thing that we call life. 

In the words of my friend Louise Hay: I am renewed and restored by the faith I have in my own healing power of love.

The Second Noble Truth

The second noble truth of Buddhism tells us that the root of all suffering is attachment.  To avoid suffering, we need to understand what causes suffering and then weed out those causes from our lives. Sounds easy doesn't it?  I am here to testify that it is not as easy as it sounds!

So, here's the questions that I've been pondering: "why is it that it is so hard to let go of things that clearly do not serve any purpose in my life".  To discover the answers to those questions,  I started by looking up the word "attachment" .  According to Dictionary.com, attachment is "a feeling that binds one to a person, thing, cause, ideal".  Sounds rather benign doesn't it.  Further more, from a psychological perspective, attachment is"an emotional bond between an infant or toddler and primary caregiver."  So, if it is normal and happens to all of us, how can it also be so hurtful and lead to suffering.  Alas, my quest to clarify the meaning of attachment proved to be of no help or comfort at all!

Next, I decided to take a look at the opposite word, non-attachment. The Buddhist teaching on non-attachment is ultimately about realizing the truth of yourself which is realizing that you’re an expression of the entire universe. And, that you’re in the universe and that the entire universe is in you and that there is no separating the two.     In other words,  it’s about what we believe about ourselves and the world around us.

Now, I was getting somewhere in my quest to understand attachment. In fact, it was with that realization that I began to grasp why I struggling with letting go! Upon more introspection, I realized that I had been making people, places and things "mine", a permanent part of my world, in order to create a sense of safety and security for myself.   However, by attaching to those people, places and things,  I created neither safety or security but rather a vicious cycle of suffering when everything inevitable changes or goes away.  

Last Saturday, I participated in the creation of an Earthscape or Playa Painting led by Andres Amador on Del Mar Beach.  During the workshop, the idea of impermanence is never far out of consciousness for you see the designs that you create are quickly and without warning washed away by the tide throughout the workshop.  The impermanence of our designs was a perfect metaphor for life and although I didn't recognize it at the time, the notion or concept of impermanence would finally be the key to help me "let go".  The exercise on the beach made me realize that nothing truly is intended to belong to me or stay the same for everything changes or goes away.

What surprised me the most was that by integrating the idea of impermanence in my life, my fear of going through life detached and lonely because I let go of everything was alleviated.  It was through the understanding of that everything is impermanent that actually made the interactions with those people, place and things even more precious and valuable to me without the need to attach to them.  I liken it to when you hold a picked flower in your hand, being well aware that the flower will wilt and die in a matter of days.  The fact that the flower will be gone inspires you to savor its beauty even more, every moment that it stays alive.  In that way, you can live your entire life savoring every moment knowing that in each moment everything can (and often does) change.

We are all one with the universe ,  with each other and soon we all will be gone. Through the exercise on the beach and through the exercise of creating this blog, I have come to new a understanding of attachment, letting go, and have gained new wisdom and sense of inner peace through the acceptance of the impermanence of life.   I have become, once again, enlightened and by reading my story, so have you!

Remembering...

Today, in all probability you will remember the tragic events of 9/11/01, just as I have been doing this morning.  I remember where I was and what I was doing.  I bet you do too!  I remember very clearly the first plane hitting the towers and all the chaos that followed. 

I remember the horror and the wave of fear that swept through our country.  But I also remember how that terror and pain brought us together as a nation, as one people together, not separated by race, nationality or religion.  We were all just Americans, who had been attacked and together as a nation, we healed.  The tragedy somehow united us all, as we began to try to make sense of it all.

It's been fifteen years since that day.  Since that day, we as a country have experienced even more violence and terror here at home and abroad.  However, the terror attacks do not seem to any longer unite as a nation.  Instead, the daily images of suffering and senseless violence seem to have filled us with fear, looking for someone to blame and hate.  Today, our fear divides us and fuels our hatred.

Moreover, it is the fear and hatred that stops our world from healing,  keeping us connected to the darkness and disconnected from the light.  It is my belief that the key to healing the wounds of our world is mending the wounds in our souls.   For you see, our biggest contribution to world peace is to be at peace ourselves. So, today I plan to shine love and light on everyone I meet.  I intend to radiate my light so brightly that it will lift the vibration of the planet.   Please join me in lighting up this day and remembering that we are love!

A time for reflection

This week we moved through the first quarter moon, which I'm told provides us with a wonderful opportunity to re-evaluate the intentions that were set during the new moon on August 2nd.  This lunar phase, I'm told is a time to go deep within ourselves to make certain that the intentions we set were true to our soul and our life's purpose.

This lunar cycle did not disappoint!  As predicted, it forced me to look deep inside and to re-evaluate the intentions that I had set for myself two week ago.  It was if a veil had been lifted and it was revealed to me that I had returned to the land of illusion.  The land, where I create stories about people, places and things, that aren't true and never have been true!  The land where I give meaning to things that just aren't important.  The kingdom in which everybody has my best interest at heart even if they show otherwise.  Moreover it's the place where I ignore that inner voice that says "do not enter".  I of course ignore that voice, jump out of reality into the illusion.  An illusion that I unfortunately have visited many times before.

However, I always reawaken from the illusion, as I did this week, briefly bereft, strangely mourning things that never existed.  Mourning the loss of people, places and things that I made up in my head.  Finally, ending this cycle in gratitude, knowing that I in reality had lost nothing.  Furthermore, knowing that none of it served any purpose in my life.  These cycles remind me of the importance of meditation and self reflection.  They remind me that I am enough and that if I remain in the present moment,  then I never have to wake up again and find myself mired in illusion.  The present moment holds my and for that matter your power.  In the present moment is where I will find fulfillment and true reality. 

Sunday is my birthday!  I begin my 55th year with a clarity of vision that I've never had before in my very long life. Last year, I let go of so much, of so many people and so many limiting beliefs.  I begin this year, lighter, brighter and full of hope.  I invite you to travel with me through my 55th year.  It is my greatest wish that you learn some lessons of love along the way!

Reflecting pool...

We need a little Christmas NOW!

Wow, it can be exhausting to just be alive these days!  I have tried hard to stay on the periphery of the political circus that plays out on the television screen every night.  I have avoided focusing on the daily images of "mistaken" shootings of a Black man and turned away from the images of the carnage of lunatics around the world killing each other.    I've meditated more frequently and opened my heart regularly.  But still fear, anger and despair seem to be everywhere I look.  I could potentially get bummed out...but that's not me!  

So I'm giving a party, a block party,  to be exact, to celebrate the One Year Anniversary of Cafe Gratitude San Diego.  To counteract all the negativity of the world around me, I've decided to fill a whole city block with LOVE, positive energy and good intentions for every person in the world.  It will be an afternoon filled with my friends, your friends and friends of the planet.  The theme of the event is We Are One and just by saying that it begins to breakdown differences and starts to unite us all. 

Here's what the events about:

Café Gratitude is celebrating the one-year anniversary of its Little Italy location! San Diegans of all ages are invited to a ‘We are One’ community block party on Sunday, July 31. The FREE, family-friendly event, held in the heart of Little Italy, includes:

• The Dr. Bronner's All-One Magic Foam Experience and Magic Fire Truck— which will cover you in peppermint bubbles (safe + biodegradable)
• An appearance from 1:1 Movement with their Stacked: A Mobile Learning Farm – a 15-foot mobile learning farm which will engage kids in crafts and activities
• High-energy live musical performances, including Finian Makepeace, Billy Galewood, Briahnna, Rae Irlen, Avasa & Matty Love, and other special guests.
• Free on-site screen printing on t-shirts and totes of the commemorative ‘We Are One’ design (BYO t-shirt)
• Local vendors including Tidbit Of Love, My Intention Project,  Living Tea Kombucha, Dr. Bronners and more!
• Plant-based cake cutting ceremony

I invite you to join us in creating a day of celebration during which we are all truly one!

Go ahead and play!

I've been spending a lot of time around kids these days both professionally and personally.  I kicked off this week at Cafe Gratitude, where I helped host the third installment of the Re:Source: Unwasted Pop Up Dinner series at Cafe Gratitude San Diego, featuring the kids from Washington Elementary School's garden club, which is run by my friend Mia Vaughnes and her remarkable Good Neighbor Gardens team.  During the pre- dinner promotion,  I got to spend many hours with the Washington Elementary garden club kids at work and at play.  Their enthusiasm and hope recharged my batteries and help me focus on what is truly real and important to me in my life.

The very next day, after the Cafe Gratitude event,  I traveled to Wild Willow Farm for an event planning walk through for the Autism Tree Project Foundation Family Farm Day that I'll be hosting at Wild Willow Farm on Saturday.  Athough no kids were included in that planning session, I began to plan my event through the eyes of a child.  I began to experience the farm and the activities I planned through the eyes of my heart and truly what would be genuinely fun and healing for children of all ages.  I am hoping that the over 50 families that are signed up to attend experience that healing on their day on the farm.

I finished up this week by photographing a "Healthy Happy Camper" day for my friend Marissa Joinson of The Intuitive Kitchen.  The Intuitive Kitchen was created by Marissa to help everyone, primarily focusing on children, eat better and thus live better and healthier.  Her summer camp is a reflection of all her many talents and was fun for this adult to attend. 

But, it was not all fun and games.  Real life lessons were being learned about how to cope with the frustration of failure, impulse control and the basics of just getting along with other people.  What I witnessed was that these children still hadn't learned that life is hard and is not fun, yet.  They hadn't created limiting thoughts for themselves, yet.  And they hadn't learned to criticize themselves for their mistakes, yet.  Witnessing their joy made me start to let go of some of the limiting thoughts and beliefs that I somehow picked up and made mine along the way.

Oh what a week this has been!  Watching and playing with those kids injected new hope and joy into my life.  It also made me start to view the world through the eyes of a child, my child.  My child who I often ignore for adult responsibilities got to come out and play!  I highly recommend that you do the same-just go ahead and play!

Write Your Own Story

Today I watched the funeral of Muhammad Ali and was deeply moved by the speeches that eulogized him.  The lengthy funeral concluded with a speech by Bill Clinton.  President Clinton started by lamenting about what more could he say about Muhammad Ali that hadn’t already been said by the previous speakers.  He decided to talk about the later half of Muhammad Ali's life, which Mr. Clinton called the best half of his life.
As most people know, Muhammad Ali lived with Parkinson’s disease for the last half of his life. Parkinson’s disease is a progressively debilitating neuromuscular disease that affects both physical & neurological function During the first half of his life, he was the heavyweight boxing champion of the world. During the first half of his life, Muhammad Ali “floated like a butterfly and stung like a bee.” Yet it was the second half of Ali’s life that President Clinton said was his best. 
President Clinton said that as Muhammad Ali lost his physical prowess, he found his true self. President Clinton pointed out that Muhammad Ali never let anything or anyone write his story for him.  Even as he lost the power to speak he continued to communicate his love and compassion to everyone he met! Additionally by losing control of his body Muhammad Ali seemed to develop his heart and his soul. 

I am always inspired by those who live joyfully and intentionally despite great obstacles and of course, I am inspired by Muhammad Ali! I also was struck by the idea that he wrote his own story and I wondered if I was doing the same thing?  What story was I writing? And, if I read that story would I be inspired by it! It made me consider rewriting and revising a couple chapters, eliminating the drama that drowns out the peace, joy and love always available to me, in my story. Are you writing your own story? If so, I hope you’re making it a good one!

False Idols, indeed!

This morning after being confronted by the arrogance of ego, a biblical quote surprisingly came to me and although I admittedly have never read the bible, the quote seems to sum up my feelings.  Thus,  it ended up in my blog! 

Recently, my friend, The Foodie Whisperer, kindly penned a blog about me.  The blog essentially explained how I truly am an outsider in the food industry.  I come to the food industry after years of being a Hospice nurse, during which I helped individuals and their families through the dying process.  That process peels away facades and superficiality and makes everyone get real!  Ego really has no place in that process and everyone is humbled as they make their way through the unknown journey of dying. 

Fast forward to twelve years ago when I entered the food industry via the doors of Whole Foods Market La Jolla.  And, although I have tried to fully entrench myself in the culture, I remain an alien, a stranger in a strange world!  During those twelve years with the help of the Food Network, I have witnessed, chefs become elevated into celebrity status, equal to some Hollywood stars.  We attribute their culinary talents with some super human qualities and character.  We do the same for rock stars and professional athletes, despite being shown their less than super human behavior every day on the news.   

The power and light that we shine on professional athletes, rock stars, politicians and now chefs all feed their human egos and that's where the bad behavior begins.  I know, first hand,  that it is almost impossible not to get caught up in the illusion of ego.  It is quite seductive and it makes one easily forget that the kudos and ass kissing mean nothing!  The ego is insatiable and can never be filled up.

In all fairness, I have helped create many illusions of people, places and things, since entering the food industry.  I have helped elevate them into a larger than life status.  Today, I was confronted by one of the monsters I created.  I was confronted by arrogance, childish behavior and stupidity.  After reclaiming my power from the out of control ego, that confronted me,  I resolved to myself that I would no longer worship any idols.  I would not create illusions in which one person is better or more deserving of attention or accolades than any other, including myself.  It is time that I stop propping up that which is not real.  It is time I "stop worshiping idols".  It is time I live in a world that love and Spirit guides me and my actions.   A world in which I live in the present and recognize the oneness of all of us.  A world in which we are all loved and worshiped.    I hope you find worship for yourself and let love guide you!  I am certain that we all will be greeted by blessings!

Not Your Cup Of Tea

It's Monday and Mercury remains in retrograde, resulting in more reviewing of the past.  Last week, I was visited by ghosts from my past.  Their visit prompted me to relive old, limiting behavior and beliefs. 

 Through a series of weird happenings this weekend,   the world suddenly became a lonely place and everyone in it seemed detached and loveless to me.  People unfriended me on Facebook for no apparent reason, I lost followers on Twitter, no one text and no one called me.   I slowly began to doubt everything and everyone. From this place of fear, I relived old relationships that I thought I were completely over but I found out otherwise.  I relived the doubt of last year that I was not worthy of being successful. Mainly, I stopped loving myself and believing in myself. 

I had landed back in a place that I no longer belonged in and which was inhabited with people, real or illusion, that no longer served any purpose in my life.  So, today I decided to just forgive everyone, including myself and to let them go with love.  By forgiving them and letting them go,  I could finally move forward.  I not only decided to do that today, but I have proclaimed this week to be Forgive and Let Go Week. At the end of this week, Mercury will go direct and the moon will once again be full, ready to manifest new experiences and new people.   I will be free of the people, places and things that have been weighing me down, zapping my energy and holding me back from fulfilling my purpose here on earth. 

I continue to learn from each one of these episodes of looking backward.  I learn about who I am and I learn to accept that not everyone is going to like me.  I've come to accept that I am not everyone's "cup of tea."  I accept that fact and accept myself exactly as I am, today!

I invite you to join me in my week long celebration! I urge you to forgive everyone (including yourself) and to release it all with love.  It is time for all of us to let go of everything that holds us back.  We will all then be free to move forward with love in our hearts.  And, all will be well in our world!

Living in Illusion

It's a new moon; it's Monday and five planets are in retrograde.  All good reasons to slow down, review where I'm going, redirect my course and set my intentions for a new moon cycle.

Last week, I was reminded that "reality is merely an illusion" (Albert Einstein). Most of what I thought and believed to be real was revealed to me to be illusion. Before my eyes, the path that I had envisioned for myself, disappeared.  Clear, indisputable messages appeared to me all week long, leaving me reeling and wondering.  It was if a veil was being lifted and the true nature about people, places and things were revealed to me.  They were nothing like what I had expected or what I had envisioned them to be.

So, I begin this week armed with a new consciousness.  I begin this week, knowing that most of what I see is not real!  Most of what I see I cannot believe in because it was created by ego and fear.  However, I do not begin this week blindly, I will choose to be guided by my "gut", intuitions and inner guidance.  The inner guidance that comes from being quiet and honoring what I am then told to be true.  

I also begin this week with a weird sense of calm that I will create more easily and experience life more fully because I am listening and letting go of the illusions.  More simply put,  by learning that I couldn't believe in anything I saw, my vision for my future and my purpose actually became clearer to me.  How about making some quiet time for yourself to interview your heart and soul? I bet you'll get some clarity of vision too! 

Synchronicity

As I look back at another month that has just gone speeding by, I find only one word to describe April-synchronicity! Carl Jung coined the term synchronicity to describe what he called the "acausal connecting principle" that links mind and matter. He said this underlying connectedness manifests itself through meaningful coincidences that cannot be explained by cause and effect. Such synchronicities occur, he theorized, when a strong need arises in the psyche of an individual. He described three types of synchronicity:

1. The coinciding of a thought or feeling with an outside event.
2. A dream, vision or premonition of something that then happens in the future
3. A dream or vision that coincides with an event occurring at a distance.

Whole Foods Market Hillcrest, 1012

I experienced all three types during the month of April! First, I saw one of my visions from my past become reality without me even knowing about it or being involvement.  In April, things just happened without my intervention, planning or struggle.  I watched the Farm Bus that I had raised money for four years ago, which I thought had died, come to life at the hands of a new generation, as the Stacked: The Mobile Learning Farm.

Secondly, all throughout the month of April,  I would think about person and they would magically appear!  All month long, the businesses who I spoke to last year, finally heard my message and hired me.  And, all month long, I met with friends, associates and colleagues, who magically were saying exactly what I was thinking. 

Lastly, in April, many of my intuitions and feelings magically were revealed to me to be "real", to be true.   The twinges in my gut and the nudges to my heart which I had ignored or rationalized away in March, were revealed to me to be true.

All this magic of synchronicity,  propelled me forward with hope.  I learned that all the messages, answers and guidance that I needed, I truly already possessed.   It just took the magic of synchronicity to make me believe in the unimaginable;  to believe in myself and to believe in the support of the Universe.  All is truly well in my world!  Believe and I bet you start to notice the magic too!

Marking time by Moonlight

Tonight is a full moon.  It's a "mini" Pink Full Moon to be precise.  It is the smallest Full Moon of the year, as the Earth and Moon move to their furthest points from each other.  Thus, the name "mini".  The term Pink, however,  does not refer to its color but to color of the flowers that blossom in spring.  For me, it may be mini, but the lessons that I've learned from it have been anything but small. 

As many of you know, I follow the cycles of the moon and often photograph it.  What I realized this week was that I have actually been photographing my own personal growth through those photos.  Through those moon photos, I was actually watching the ebb and flow of my life.  My life growing in sync with the waxing and waning of the moon. This week as the moon grew in size and luminescence, I also began to grow and change in profound ways, mirroring the growth of La Luna.

 Last night,  I took the last photo,  documenting the end of another cycle, culminating in a full moon.   Each new full moon, I set intentions for what I hope to manifest or make happen during the next moon cycle.  I have set countless intentions on countless full moons.  For countless full moons, I have intentionally set my course for the next moon cycle.  That process has allowed me to reset my course and to take full responsibility for my own happiness and well-being.  The process allows me to stop and reflect on how I am limiting myself and set intentions to love myself enough to go beyond those limitations and to accept all the good life has to offer!  I am always astonished at how I can get in my own way;  step on my own feet!

That being said, I will set new intentions tonight and I encourage you to do the same.  If the moon isn't your thing, I encourage you to find a way to mark the moments of your life, find gratitude in them all and treasure them because one thing is for sure,  they will be gone, just like the full moon.

Grateful for the little things!

Today, Facebook reminded me that two years ago, I walked out of Whole Foods Market Hillcrest and I never returned.  Since then, I've done a lot!  I also haven't taken the time to allow myself to look back, at least not much!  The universe and its planets by going retrograde,  this week, provided me with experiences, which forced me to stop, review my past, relearn a lesson and finally, reset my path.

Two years ago, I left Whole Foods Market after an employment that spanned almost ten years.  Although I never doubted for one minute that it was the right thing to do, I also was filled with doubt and fear for my future because I didn't have a clear picture of what I wanted to do nor how I would make that happen.  So, as most of you know, I did A LOT-everything from putting on events to launching my own business, Your Product Hub.  What most of you don't know is that most of what I did the first year, I did by what I call "the pinball method"- which meant whatever I bumped into and got excited about, I did! I do not recommend that approach because it is not effective!  It is driven by fear which stops any good from coming into your life.  And ultimately is exhausting! 

April 15, 2014-one of my last days at wfm hillcrest with my wise friend, Liam

That being said, one year ago, I started my own business in hopes that by launching my own business that it would instantly bring clarity to my life.  It did not give my life any more clarity of vision nor direction.  Without that clarity of vision for my life and my business it was impossible to find success in any fashion-financially, spiritually, professionally.  

I finally at the beginning of year two, began to really receive that message and more importantly began to integrate that message into my life.  Simply put, I started to learn my lessons!  I learned that when I am authentic, listen to my "gut instincts", trust in myself and walk a way from ego, I will always be led on my path.  A path that is not littered in drama, self doubt and lots of perceived pain.

My journey has become a lot easier these days!  The past two years have offered me so much opportunity to learn that I am worthy and deserve to be paid for my services.  Beyond that I am worthy and deserve all that is good in life.   That lesson serves me, my business and ultimately everyone around me. 

Today, two years later, I am thankful for all the experiences which propelled me forward on my path. I am proud of who I am, where I am and where I'm going.  Today, I believe in the unlimited potential for my future and I am grateful for the little things in my life.....I am grateful for it all!

A Picture Perfect Week

In this day and age of social media, constant streaming videos, pictures and messages, the old saying "a picture is worth a thousand words" seems even more true than ever before.  So this week, I took a deep breath, quieted my mind and opened my heart.  This is what I saw!

Happy Spring to you,  all!  May all your changes be easy to make;  may you let your heart lead on the path to your purpose and may your pictures be worth more than a thousand words.  

Growing awareness...

It's April and the seeds that I've planted during the months of February and March are now beginning to grow!   During those months, I searched for a way to combine my passion for farms with my life's purpose, which is now clear to me, healing.  In my single minded quest to make that happen, I searched the internet; I searched the literature;  I searched my heart.  I even asked, regularly, for divine guidance and here's what I found...Care Farming.

Care Farming is the therapeutic use of farming practices. Care farms:

• Utilize the whole or part of a farm
• Provide health, social or educational care services for one or a range of vulnerable groups of people
• Provide a supervised, structured program of farming-related activities

Although the concept of Care Farming is being implemented throughout the rest of the world, here in the US, it has only recently started to be recognized. In fact, the governments of the UK, Scotland and the Netherlands actually reimburse their participating Care Farms.  When I discovered the concept, I knew that I had found what I had been looking for and I set off manifesting my own version of a Care Farm.

As you all know, I know a lot of farmers and farms so, where to put my first Care Farm was not a worry for me.  It was who would believe in my vision of a Care Farm enough to be a part of my first Care Farm?  And, like all things that were absolutely meant to be...that organization entered my life, The Autism Tree Project Foundation. 

The Autism Tree Project Foundation (ATPF), which was founded in 2003, is a 501(c)(3) organization dedicated to improving communities in San Diego County and The Bay Area by assisting with Education, Advocacy, Early Intervention Preschool Screening, Research and Mentoring for families impacted by autism.  ATPF also provides free Early Intervention Preschool Screenings to over 2,000 youth annually with 10,794 preschoolers screened to date since 2006.

A little over a month ago,  in a strange twist of fate,  ATPF announced that they intended to start a new program-Food, Farming and Nutrition and were searching to see how they could make that program come to life.  As I have learned, if things were meant to be, they will happen.  And that is exactly what happened. Three weeks ago, I was invited to attend ATPF's quarterly meeting, where I would met with the founder, her son and many other volunteers and participants in ATPF.  I was profoundly touched by their selfless work! 

Fast forward to yesterday, when I met with Lisa Kauffman the program director and Caitylyn, who is their grant writer extraordinaire.  We discussed their Food, Farms and Nutrition program.    Again, I was incredibly inspired by their mission and goals, which are completely in alignment with mine.  And like that,  my dream of creating a Care Farm began to come true. 

As I write this blog, I have already received agreement from a local farm that would love to host our program.  More importantly,  I have the passion of the ATPF, who believe like I do that a farm is a healing space and that within that healing space, their autistic children will not only heal, but will also flourish, from being nourished by the earth.    Finally you can bet that I will flourish too by continuing to follow my life purpose;  having the courage to let go of things that don't serve that purpose and by letting love guide all my actions.  How about you?

Saving our past for future generations...

Coral Tree Farm in Encinitas

"Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds that you plant."  (Robert Louis Stevenson).  That quote sums up what I've been up to for the past month.  Yes, indeed I've been planting the seeds of my future.  But, I have also been saving seeds with my friend, Laurel, at Coral Tree Farm.

This week when I visited Coral Tree Farm, I had an epiphany!  Despite the fact that I have visited the farm before and walked through the raised beds and citrus trees, I somehow saw the farm in a completely new way and from a completely new perspective.   On that day, as I walked the farm, I saw the seeds instead of the veggies. 

And as I walked through the farm, it took on a whole new meaning.  The raised beds now were overgrown and the produce,  which was intentionally not harvested, now sprouted glorious flowers.  Those flowers were being pollinated before my eyes by many busy bees.  Laurel then explained to me how she intended to harvest the seeds after the flowers were gone and save them for future plantings.  Before my eyes, I was watching the entire life cycle and the future of our planet.  That was my epiphany!

In addition, to that epiphany, I had another revelation while walking the farm.   For you see that despite writing close to 50 definitions of heirloom during my tenure at Whole Foods Market, I never quite grasped the full concept of heirloom and why it was so important.  During that visit, I came to truly understand what the term heirloom means and why it's so important that we save their seeds.  And, although the concept of heirloom is too broad of a concept to cover in this blog, suffice it to say, that it truly is a game changer in saving our planet.  I am certain that Laurel has the same belief and that's why we're going to be saving the seeds of the heirloom veggies grown on Coral Tree Farm and then will be sharing them with the world.

Stay tuned to find out what grows out of those seeds and the many other seeds that I've planted!!

Let go and surrender!

Good morning!  For me it truly is a new day!  I've spent months letting go of friends, causes and a lot of limiting beliefs.  It is time for me to let go of the steering wheel, ask for guidance and have faith in the direction that I receive from a Spirit much larger than myself.
 As I share this message with my friends, it seems as if many of them are experiencing the same energy and are receiving the same message to let go of all that does not serve your purpose.  And, then there are people who are unaware of this energy or simply don't believe in anything larger than themselves.  Despite their disbelief about anything they can't see, those people are nevertheless experiencing this energetic upheaval.   However, they are being forced to let go against their will through death of loved ones,  loss of employment, life threatening illnesses and accidents.

This is a time of change, profound change whether you're willing or not!  I am willing and I am hoping to find like minded people to help me change, to change my life and change our planet!  For you see, I know that it is only when I join with others through the conscious collective will I make those profound changes that I've been put on this earth to do. 

If you are reading this blog, then you've been guided to read it since I quietly posted it without any fan fare.  It means that you chose to read this blog and to receive its message.  I am hoping that like me, you let go of what is holding you back (and I know you know what that is) to move forward with me!  I will continue on my path with the intention of raising the vibration of every person I encounter and of making this world a little bit better place through love.  Please join me!